This week. I haven't really been live streaming on youtube. I have been live live streaming stocks uh. I've pulled off the gas a little bit and i it shows.

I think people in the youtube comment section and uh on twitter. Uh have pointed out that it feels like i've fallen off like i i don't care anymore. And i want to discuss this because it's been a minute since i've sort of broken down to this level uh. My thoughts on things because i don't like being a big crybaby weeny.

You know i just don't uh. It never ends well people always criticize you for it but uh truth be told. I'm feeling burnout. Which is absurd to to think about and discuss because i i'm sure there are lots of people who would be so grateful to uh be in the sort of situation that i am right now and have some of the freedoms that i do but i i sort of want to walk you through my thought process here and discuss this moving forward uh so that we're maybe on the same page you might not like it you might like it.

But i figured it's worth talking about i got two main things two stories to tell uh. The first thing is this i watched a podcast. It had tommy in it he's a big minecraft youtuber young kid. I think he's like 18 19.

20 years old right now uh. He was on colin and sameer and he was the this you know sort of discussing his youtube channel and uh. The process of coming up and he brought up an interesting topic of conversation and that topic was every day when i sit down to make a video. I think to myself am i doing this because i have to or am.

I doing this because i want to and that kind of stuck with me. This podcast came out maybe eight or nine days ago. Uh. 10.

Max and when i watched it through. I thought to myself. I should probably ask myself this question and when i sit down uh for a live stream. When i sit down for a video do i feel like i have to do this or do i feel like i want to do this.

And that is sort of been a reoccurring theme so monday i sit down at my usual time two o'clock. Pm. Eastern for a live stream uh on youtube to go over the same stuff. We always do you know and i asked myself am.

I doing this because i have to am. I doing this because i want to uh and i came to find that i i thought it was because i had to same thing with tuesday same thing with wednesday. Now today. Which is i think thursday uh you can obviously see that i'm not live right.

Now. If you're watching this if you're watching this video uh and i i want to really understand why why do i feel that way why do i feel like i have to and not like i want to because i'm a very passionate guy you know uh when i do something i want to do it 150 of the way uh. I want to feel proud of what i put out and i want to feel most importantly like i make a difference in people's lives and for some reason one way or another you know over the previous. I'd argue probably three four months uh.

I haven't felt that way i haven't felt like it's it's been as rewarding. I haven't felt like i've made a difference in people's lives and i haven't felt like uh sort of the same fire if that makes sense and that brings me to sort of point number two and i'm i'm very familiar with burnout. This is the second story of the day uh back when i was in high school and college and i'd run right i ran uh collegially and i ran. I wouldn't say it professionally.

But i took it very serious for i'd argue probably about five or six years and uh overall my running career lasted about 12. I went through many many times where i'd experience burnout and i thought back once i sort of identified problem. Number. One which is that i feel like i have to live stream stocks and not like i want to uh.

I came back and i thought so what's different about this versus. Then because when i had burnout back in you know the old days back in college. When i would uh run 100 miles a week. And i feel like my body was giving out my heart wasn't in it why am i doing this so you're not seeing the progress.

You want to see what i would simply do is just stop. I would take a break. I would take one week off from running two weeks off from running three weeks four weeks. Sometimes uh five six you know until i felt like my body.

And my mind. And my heart craved it again. And there's it really is the best word to use is crave because that is the way that i viewed running is i it's like breathing. I couldn't go a day.

Without doing it it was something that had to be a part of my day. I was so passionate about it i had so much energy. Uh and time and manifestation derived in that single sport and that single activity uh. So when i felt like i i was stepping away from that i was walking away from that it would come back to me that drive would come back the burnout would go away.

And i would just go back to cranking for six months a year two years three years until sort of the next stage of burnout would take place and take time off. So what is the difference between that and this i've thought about this and i think what it really is is running is a sort of an individual sport right sure i ran on a cross country and track team you don't want to let your guys down you want to contribute to the team as much as you possibly can and make sure that you're improving sort of the standpoint. Uh of your teammates and of your peers. And of your brothers.

You know uh. But at the same time when i ran. I was competing against myself. I wanted to just be the best version of myself every single day show up and be a little bit better and even if it's not physically it's mentally if it's not mentally.

It's socially if it's not socially. It's blah blah blah. You go down the line. I just wanted to i like the feeling of growth goal post chasing you know uh versus this situation.

The pressure in my head right and this might sound goofy. This might sound strange. But with youtube and with stocks and uh with sort of being in the situation that i'm in right now the shoes that i'm in uh. It at times.

Feels like this isn't an it can't be this isn't an individual sport right uh. It's not just about my own personal growth. It's also about you guys you know the people who watch. These videos every day for better or for worse uh bless all your hearts.

Even the haters. I love you guys. But anyways uh uh. The difference here is i'm trying to do something for people you know running was very individual.

It's very selfish. It was very self driven self purpose driven. I only wanted to be an absolute monster on the track. I wanted to walk off the track and feel like such a god that my dick would put a hold through my shorts.

You know versus this what i want is to feel gratified in seeing that you make a difference in people's lives. And it could just be the bear market right it could be that the bear market sort of weighs your brain down it can make you feel sort of burdened and heavy and uh like like there's just a lot of negative sentiment in the air that can surely be it right i can recognize that it could be uh that sometimes the mean comments get to your head and i just got to grow thicker skin. I know i'm a big crybaby weenie baby that's why i'm making this video. Okay so before you even get on that train.

We've already established and we've already established that it could be a lot of factors. I think there's a lot of things that have happened in the previous year and a half. But one thing that i'm certain of is that i do need to understand why i feel that way and while that is the case. I think what i'm going to do is take a step back from live streaming on youtube that doesn't mean i'm going to stop making videos it doesn't mean that i'm going to disappear.

I'm not quitting youtube. I'm not doing anything like that uh. But but i am feeling burnt out and i am missing that same passion and fire and desire and uh all those different words that get you up in the morning and excited to talk about stocks you know uh and i have to refine that i think i talked to colin. If you don't follow him on twitter.

He's a great follow uh colin. Is is a really level headed cool calm collected sort of guy to rip off tmi here and uh. I said to him i said man listen i i'm running into a problem. And i don't know what to do i know you're older than me you have a little more life experience.

And i'm not afraid to reach out for a helping hand if i need it i said to him i'm experiencing burnout uh. When i when i sit down to record a video and i sit down to make a live stream. I i i almost find it difficult to press the record button or to press. The go live button.

What should i do and he said this to me. He said. Think about what you want 10 years from now all right 10 years from now do you want to continue educating on finance. Do you want to continue talking about finance.

Do you think 10 years from now you're going to have an interest in finance. Do you think 10 years from now you're going to have an interest in in making a difference in the financial world and if that is the case. If your answer is yes. Well.

Then you have to find a way to power through this burnout and if ten years from now you can't really envision that for yourself. Then you you have to sort of come to grips with that and make some changes in your life. And that made me think you know i do want finance to be a very integral part of my life. I want it to be something that i can share with others because it's something that changed my life forever and can change.

Many others and will change. Many others and has changed many others and i want to be a part of that and my ultimate mission. If i could give one right now isn't even moaz. It's not it is to fight for equitable markets for all we can have a squeeze one time one and done thing right.

But that will help a select group of people maybe a couple ten thousand maybe a couple hundred thousand maybe even a couple million. But what about our kids to come what about those who come in the future of the markets. See. This is what i think of is how can we how can we fight for a market that will uh truly impact positively the new incomers.

The new retail who who want to live that american dream and have the same right that everybody should have to to wealth and wealth. Creation and uh freedom. Because that's ultimately what wealth is is an opportunity to be free uh. Which can lead to happiness.

And that's always a goal right so i've established those two things i'm feeling burnout presently. Uh and secondly uh. I want this to be something that i continue on over the next decade and likely longer to be quite frank. So i have to take a step back.

I have to take a step back you might not see as many videos from me. I i will not be live streaming until. I uh sort of come to grips with what needs to change in my own psyche. My own personal life.

So that i can accomplish this and i wanted to run that body because i feel like you deserve to know that you know at the end of the day. My sure i make money from doing youtube right and i'm not gonna lie all right. It's it's it does help uh. I'm able to employ two guys full time and that's really rewarding and i'm able to to help my mom with things and and all the like.

But what truly brings me the most happiness isn't money in fact money is probably the most stressful thing uh that that comes with the channel. Believe it or not i know that sounds weird to say. But what brings me the most happiness is the growth and the feeling of warmth that you get from feeling like you make a difference in people's lives and i have to reground myself from that and i wanted to discuss that today in a very level headed sort of manner uh so that you guys know where i'm at because you deserve that you know i don't want to give you half of my half of my mental energy half of my focus. I don't want to give you half of anything you guys deserve to know exactly where i'm at right now and that's where i'm at right now you might not like that you might like that you might say hey trey's doing this because the market's red and to you oh you're a genius.

This is a great time it's great time but uh that's where i'm at and as things sort of develop and i sort of come to grips with things uh you'll see me return to live streaming. That's something that i i'm nearly certain will happen i have to think uh about what i got to do and i suppose that's all that i've got to say so uh. I know that's kind of long that i don't typically do a lot of these sit down videos. Anymore.

But uh. I felt that this was an exception to the rule. And one worth discussing and talking about so that's what i have for you guys my last thing that i have to say is to everybody who has has messaged me or commented uh positive and negative things feedback hatred love the like right that really does mean a lot to me all right. I don't want to understate that i don't want to pretend that that is not the case because i am beyond grateful for everything that has happened in my my my life and sort of the the love and the community that that exists here and i owe you guys a lot i do uh in my heart in my mind my soul man uh.

I feel like i have to for the rest of my days on youtube. Find the best possible way to give back to you guys for all the love and support that you've shown me. And i think this is just a step in the journey. So i want to pass that along i hope you guys all enjoy your day.

I appreciate you very much until the next one appreciate it much love light taps peace.